Why I Vanished For 389 Days

“Kat, why aren’t you blogging?” 

That’s the question I’ve been asking myself for over a year and (spoiler!!) I still don’t have an answer.  

One day I was here, shouting about cupcakes and writing up a storm – and then, I was gone. I didn’t know that I’d dissapear for 389 days when I posted my HOW TO READ MORE article or, that I’d miss blogging so much but I did vanish and I did miss it. 

Anyway, I’m back (and although I will get into a few of the reasons I dissappeared from the face of the earth, being back is what matters. Right?).

It’s a new year and the same old cupcake eating, book devouring, pajama wearing me. 

Not much has changed in my corner of the world, but I thought it’d be fun to kick things off with a good, old fashioned #AmCurrently or – in this case – a #WhatIDidWhileIShouldHaveBeenBloggingPleaseForgiveMe or a #ThingsThatHaveChangedSinceWeLastSpoke


This is one of the biggest reasons I vanished – because although I’ve always been studious I found myself distracted, and seeing as though 2017 was my senior year I figured it was a good idea to set distractions aside, dive right in and not resurface until it was all over. 

So, basically: when I wasn’t buried beneath a pile of textbooks, I was eating energy bars and complaining about my workload to my cats who (spoiler) didn’t care about my raging stress levels. 

Nevertheless, I did it!

After 12 years and what felt like a million exams: school was done (or, at least, high school’s done). 

Graduating brought along this great sense of surrealism. I spent about a week after my last exam thinking, “is that it? Am I really done?” before it occurred to me, “well, what now?” 

That, “what now?” feeling was intensified by number two: 


(and started waking up earlier, wearing matching socks, got a house plant and basically: I feel like an adult now – and, naturally, want to run away to Neverland)

I’d always liked the idea of growing up and becoming more independant, but now that I’m here and actively faced with things like responsibilities and choices and expenses I feel ready to pack a bag and catch a ride with Peter Pan to Neverland because exuse me for saying so, but adulting is hard!!

Like, which brand of soap do I buy? And why am I expected to know what I want to do with the rest of my life? And WHERE IS MY MOM AND WHY ISN’T SHE HELPING ME MAKE THESE DIFFICULT DECISIONS ABOUT WHICH PAIR OF TIGHTS I WANT TO PURCHASE?!


Yes, popcorn tea is an actual thing. And no, I didn’t like it the first time I tried it but I a) believe in second chances and b) made some by mistake so, I tried it again. 

And let me tell you, the result was no different.

It still tastes like soggy popcorn in liquid form… 

4. I’VE BEEN WRITING (a lot) AND READING (even more than that)

I wrote quite a few books in 2017 – none of which are good enough to be read anytime soon, but I’m getting the stories out – and that in itself seems like a win to me.

2017 was the year my writing featured teenagers with cake filled mouths and butterfly filled stomachs, a lot of revenge plots and (of course) lots of magic. 

I read over 100 books in 2017 – not bad for an overwhelmed, over-stressed ball of panic, if i do say so myself – but in 2018 I want to start actually using Goodreads (so let’s become friends over there so you can recommend me books and I can continue to grow my obnoxiously long TBR (to-be-read) pile, okay? Click here for my profile).

5. I DELETED ALL THE POSTS OFF MY INSTAGRAM (and went radio silent)

I don’t remember what made me decide to delete all my instagram posts last year, but it felt great to disconnect for a little while. It was refreshing to stay away and emerse myself in reality after my exams ended. No statistics or comments or friend requests – but with that said, I missed this community and visiting your blogs. 

And I’m glad to be back. 


In October, I fianlly got around to reading “LET’S EXPLORE DIABETES WITH OWLS” by David Sedaris. I don’t have the words to describe how much I enjoyed it, so I’ll just say this: weeks after I’d read more of his essays, poems and blog posts it occurred to me that I’d happily read his grocery lists.


“Writing gives you the illusion of control, and then you realise it’s just an illusion, that people are going to bring their own stuff into it.” 

-David Sedaris


Can you believe this happened? 

I’m growing up! My tastes are changing! 

I’ve been reading Young Adult novels since I was 11 and I’m quite certain I’ll never stop, but I’ve got into reading Brandon Sanderson recently and It’s.So.Good.I.Can’t.Get.Enough. It’s honestly like discovering a whole new universe of authors and stories, which is SO exciting. 


How’s 2018 been treating you? Leave your blog link below so I can check you out (!) and tell me: did you have a favourite book in 2017? 

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